3 Months Old!

 Oh my God. 

His little old man receding hairline kills me.  KILLS me I tell ya.

 And P.S.  His smile kills me also.

Cannot express how I feel about these pics.  About this boy.  Just can't.  I'm not eloquent enough. 

Just.......ahhhhh.  I am so happy.  

Rainy Day

When all else fails, grab some rain boots and umbrella and PLAY!

A house full of love

(also titled, May photo dump)

Daddy love.

Brother love.

Bowl love.

Swing love.

Crying in harmony love.

Rainforest animal love.

Baby in the mirror love.

Handsome man love.

Another handsome man love.

Serious face love.

Turtle toy love.

Sprinkler love.

Sweet boy love.

Building with Daddy love.

Brothers playing together love.

Silly love.

Proud big brother love.

Ok, so the pictures are all kinds of out of order, but you get the gist.

My sweet boy

Caleb.  Oh Caleb.  

Despite my lack of blogging, trust me when I tell you, I love you so so much.

You are such an absolute joy in my life.  You are a happy baby- so giggly and fun.  You love to play and laugh with me, especially after you're done nursing. You just stare up at me with this amazing grin and my heart melts. You are starting to really love your activity mat on the floor. You swipe at the animals with your hands and try to catch them.  You're not quite coordinated enough yet to grasp them, but every now and then, by happy coincidence, you do get one and you love it. Your face lights up when Daddy comes near you.  Pretty much you always have smiles for him.  You are living the life of second child- always on the go with us, going to bring Matthew to and from school, grocery shopping with mama.  You are learning to go with the flow, though sometimes it really messes up your naps.  You are sleeping very well at night.  Some nights you still wake up around 1 am for some milk, and other nights you sleep straight through until 4 or 5 am, eat, then go back to sleep until 8:30 or so.  You love bath time--after bath, not so much.  You have hated being swaddled since you were 3 weeks old or so.  You just fought and fought it, so we go without.  You're not a fan of your crib- you sleep in the Rock N Play next to me in my room for nights and if you nap, you're in the swing in the living room (where you are right now).  

It's true I've always wondered how this would work when a second baby got here.  I have this huge gigantic love for Matthew and it was hard to imagine feeling that for another. But, it just IS.  There is love.  There is room for more than one in my heart and soul.  Clearly my heart has doubled in size or some such, because I have huge gigantic love for Caleb too.  I am one lucky lady, that much is for sure.

I have joy.  I have love.  I have it all I tell you.

2 month stats

Caleb had his 2 month well-child visit yesterday.  I was excited to see how big he's gotten because he certainly feels a lot bigger to me!  

Weight: 12 lbs, 1 oz

Height: 23 1/2"

He also got one oral vaccination and 3 shots. Ugh. That was so hard to watch. The somewhat funny part was that Matthew was with us and as soon as Caleb got his first shot, he started to scream and cry. Matthew also started to scream and cry. After all was said and done and I got them calmed down, Matthew told me "that not nice they hurt my Caleb.  Next time you tell her no pinch for baby." Ha.  Sorry bud, but next time, you will be with us and we will be there for your 4 year appointment and Caleb's 4 month appointment.  You're both gonna get some shots.  Mommy will need wine.  

Caleb had a rough rest of the day.  He was obviously in pain and spent a lot of time screaming.  I felt so bad for him.
We cuddled together in my bed while big brother napped.

So because I'm always curious how Caleb is growing in comparison to Matthew, I looked up Matthew's 2-month visit. (he was about 2 lbs lighter).  What really stood out to me about it was the picture:

See that black strap up on my shoulder? That is the strap for the wound vac I had attached to my incision. At the 2 month visit.  Still.

This time around I dealt with some incision crap again, but it was so much much much much better than the last time and at 2 months my incision is completely closed and done with. No drama, no mess.  For that, I am thankful.  (side note:  I happen to also think I look less tired this time around, but that's just my opinion)

That's me with Caleb this past weekend.  I guess it's hard to see that I look less tired with the sunglasses on, but I look all pasty gross in the Matthew picture.  Maybe it's just the Texas sun working it's Vitamin D magic.